The first time I stumbled upon the terms “rainbow pregnancy” and “rainbow baby” was in March 2019, about eight and half years after my stillbirth. I don’t feel very connected to these terms. Here’s why: First, I think that the rainbow is already taken. When I see a rainbow, I think of the LGBTQ community, […]
On September 6th, 2010, I was on the 37th week and three days of my second pregnancy. I was feeling under the weather, so I spent most of the day in bed. That afternoon I wasn’t sure I felt my baby move, so I went to the ER. After several attempts to hook up the […]
Many women refer to their stillbirth as the “before and after” changing point, the life they had before the stillbirth and the life they have after it is not the same, it’s changed. That’s not the case for me. While it is a significant point in my life, I don’t think I lived my life […]
On one of my posts someone tagged Limor Barak, a screen writer, who then sent me a trailer to a short movie she was a part of, with a question: “what do you understand from this?” The short movie “It’s A boy” is based on a true story about a pregnant woman, who is about to […]
Many women have asked me about the pregnancy that follows a stillbirth. I’ll begin by saying- each woman has her own pace. Each woman has her personal decision to make. It can be a complex decision, it is always a brave one, and the only partners for this decision are, in my opinion, the spouses. […]
Music is an un-separable part of my life. Every experience in my life has a soundtrack of artists I love and respect. First in line are, and forever will be, Queen. Queen is my favourite band since a very young age, their songs are with me throughout my life and are a great source of […]
As I finished writing my story about stillbirth, I felt the next step will be to start talking about this experience. I have a lot to say about it. I didn’t know how one starts booking lectures through. Of course, I need to write one, that’s a given. But how does one actually books lectures […]
Conversations with a song. Ever had that? I did, with Amanda Palmer’s heart crushing and soul empowering album “There Will Be No Intermission“, especially with this song, Voicemail For Jill. It’s weird what I’m about to say, I know, but I knew all the songs on this album long before I heard them. Once I […]
The grieving period is over, the tears are dry and they don’t visit as often as before. The pain feels different. Smiling and laughter come easier and more frequently, and suddenly a day goes by without thinking about my baby girl Ayelet. So now what? I think, this is what it means to “move on […]
First post on a new blog. What should I write, what should I write. Maybe it’s best to start with an answer to the question- why am I talking about stillbirth. The first simple reason is that I want to. I want to talk about stillbirth because I think it is not talked about enough. […]